Alright, I guess it's a little obvious I love a woman and I am SUPER proud of that. Especially the woman I love. Hannah is seriously so easy to love which is why I think this I love you story happened after a month of dating…YES, yes…I told her the L-word on December 7th, 2019 and we started dating on October 26, 2019. My exes probably think I’m crazy too ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯

Anywho, let me set the mood for you. We hang out all the time (probably haven't slept apart for more than two nights lol). “Fell in love in October” by Girl in Red is OUR song and we’re doing the cutest date nights like picnics, movie nights, and visiting new breweries.

We were swooning, okay! Every other statement that came out of our mouths was “I like youuuuu.”, “You’re my favorite.”, or “I really like you.” A few times I had accidentally said a mix between like and love a “loke” if you will and luckily, Hannah never noticed my many slip-ups.

There was no doubt that I was falling for Hannah and absolutely no doubt I loved her. But, I had NO idea how she felt about me...so let's get to that day LOL.

Hannah and I were hanging out and it was the day of my last dance concert. I was running late (typical) and Hannah was dropping me off at Salem’s drama theatre. I was obviously in a rush because I’m late and then realized that I was supposed to be leading the warmups that day too...Hannah zooms in the parking lot (as she always had as an undergraduate student) and as I'm hopping out I say:

“Byeeee, I love you.” and slam the car door.

To then, open the car door back with my mouth wide open and say to Hannah, “Did I….just...say..”

Hannah replies, “Ummmm (nervous laugh) yeaaa.” I close the car door.

I open the car door, again and say “Okay, yea, I’m sorry.” Hannah doesn't respond.

I THEN RUNNNNNNN (i hate myself for this now. How embarrassing. But, I had no idea how to respond so my reaction was to run to the drama theatre?) but, I stopped midway, turned towards Hannah’s car, did a very uncomfortable “ehhhhh” and then turned around and ran into the theatre.

As I get inside three of my professors are in the hallway. They ask me if I’m okay and I let them know I'm the furthest from okay and then stand and watch how Hannah is handling this through the theatre windows as she’s sitting in her car.

And she doesn't. do. anything...just calmly drives away. (later she’d tell me that she was freaking out, didn't know if I meant it so she didn't know how to respond, and then called her best friend Katie freaking out.)But, while I think she’s just chilling I again start running onto the stage of the drama theatre screaming “Fuck, fuck fuck fcukc fuck fuck fuck fcykj fyck” Like over and over. Completely interrupting any type of warming up that was going on. Luckily, all my (timely) friends were there for me to freak out to. I sit down and start stretching and let my girlies know what's up.

Of course, they try to comfort me and tell me everything’s fine and that Hannah loves me too but I am thinking the worst like Hannah is going to think I’m that typical U-Haul lesbian, or she’s going to break up with me or I was never going to live down this embarrassment (update: I still haven’t) I called my sister to let her know, she laughs and tells me the same thing, “Hannah loves you too.”

Then, right before the show, Hannah comes backstage and hands me flowers. I totally thought it was her being like “I love you, too” But, they were from my sister wishing me a great last senior show LOL love ya, Sis! I hug Hannah and say sorry again and I am just extremely awkward. She lets me know that it's “all good, no worries”, and then goes to sit in the audience.

The entire show, I'm freaking.

After the show, Hannah and I went to grab Fred so we could take Christmas photos quickly before Hannah and I’s ugly Christmas sweater party.

Here are some of the photos we took in Old Salem and Hannah did fantastic and Fred just looks so handsome.

We head over to this white fence and as Hannah takes this photo she says, “I love you, too.” and captured my reaction on camera. SWOONING!

I was in shock. In shock that Hannah freaking Huskey loves ME. Shocked that she’s not totally over me after I embarrassed the hell out of myself earlier that day. Shocked that saying and hearing this “I love you” felt so so magical (barf, I know). I still get all the butterflies when I hear those words from her.

Then after Hannah told me, we walked down a street in Old Salem holding hands and saying how weird but natural it felt to finally say that to each other after saying, “I like you.” so much.

So anyway that’s our “I love you” story. Super embarrassing and now I know that in very very awkward situations, I just run away. But, super thankful for how things ended up and especially how they’re going :)

Do you have any awkward “I love you” stories? Leave a comment below - I know I can’t be the only one here!

Also enjoy these pictures from Hannah and I’s Christmas party following the, “I love you.” fiasco!!

xx, am